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There is a christmas party in my senior’s house on christmas eve. Well, that day morning i took a hot shower in a very cold weather. Suddenly the water from the shower turns cold when i shower my head.

Dang, it seems like some air get inside my head. I feel a bit headache, whenever i take a breath, the air keep on stuck inside my brain. But luckily this matter not very serious.

So finally the party start on 7.30pm. Can u believe it? There got 20+ people stuck inside a small flat, but this is nice for keeping warm. People who attend included Malaysians, n 2 strange but frenly Hong Kong guys. Then we start to eat, the food very nice, i feel it’s even better than outside buffet. 1 person only 20.50yuan, n can eat until u cant eat. We got fry rice, sandwich, spring rolls, curry mushroom, curry vegetables, salad n fruits, mushroom soup, smash potatoes, special eggs v gravy, chocolate cake, 2 diff kinds of special ‘lo bak’, beef v vege gravy….whoo, i have tried all food, except mushroom soup, coz they finish it so fast, i cant even taste a drop from it. The conclusion is the food very nice, it impress me a lot. Even now my tongue stil can imagine the taste of the food.

Then we start to play game lo. Play 4 games if i had not mistaken, game no.1 is : 50cents n 1ringggit, game no.2 is step on plastic bag, game no.3 is shout number n slap people, game no.4 is play killer. In between this game, we got countdown, then as usual bla bla bla lo. Okma, although got some depress whenever i face many people, at least i can forget about the headache i got on that morning. Then at last we exchange present lo, i get a red colour diary book, n that day i bought a cloth material pencil box as present. Then almost 4-6 am, we talk ghost stories, hehee…the whole nite din sleep. For me, ghost story is juz for entertainment nia lo. Ghost very frightening meh? Human being is more frightening i guess. 

The most impressing thing of the nite is the food….yummy..N then accidentally listen a christmas song by George Michael through my fren’s mp3 call ‘Last Christmas’, simply sweet n touching, so typical 1980’s rhythm. If u interested can try to click here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d2rD2C6iKKM, look at George Michael’s hair, so cool n it recalls some of my memory about 1980’s.

I got a fren’s birthday is on Christmas, every year’s birthday we’ll celebrate Christmas together v him. Dunno hows him now? Wish u Merry Christmas n Happy Birthday, buddy. Merry X’mas to everyone oso.       

There is no white christmas in Nanjing. The temperature stil at the same level around 5celcius. We plan to celebrate Christmas at my senior’s house. I juz bought my present from a place near my school. The feel for this year’s Christmas should b very different, expect there’ll b many people on the street, the street like a extra large size of Bukit Bintang, should b very good ‘Christmas atmosphere’. Hope that this Christmas is a ’sentimental Christmas’, it flow through every corner of this world.   

What i buy as my Christmas present?I keep it as a secret 1st.

In the meaning of Penang rojak hockien, "deo k" means get scold by somebody, they humiliate u like a dog…Or  disrespect to u. Well, i’m that kind of person that always "deo k", dun know y, maybe i cant get use to this society well. I almost "deo k" everywhere, everyday. Housework din do well, "deo k"; ride a bus take too much hand carry n block the bus door, "deo k";  reaction slow a bit, "deo k"; it seems like i’ m a target of being "deo k", Whoo…i really dunno how to face this society n mix v people, they seems like wil threat n humiliate me anytime, n now i got so many fear inside my heart. What can i do? Everyday when i wan to smile to people, they oso seems like wanna "k" me. But i’m a super extremely peace lover(believe it or not), i’ll not argue v them, or should I say i dunno how to argue v them. When i treat them too well, they juz think that i’m a person that easy to get bullied, when i get angry then i’ll hurt the feelings of others, then there’ll b no peaceful relationship anymore, maybe this is a problem. I’ll forever lost something, ‘rugi’ something in my life. Until now i stil dunno y i always screw something up n  "deo k". Now  my mind is stay in between of positive n negative, but positive side is really hard to remain, when u r a person that always "deo k". Now i’m stil studying, but when i go out to hav a job in this society, hoo hoo, "deo k" even more! I cant imagine hows it.  I’m really not good enuf to survive in this world. Izzit a peace lover forever got no space to stand in this world?

Or should i believe what a Christian believe:" When somebody slap ur left face, let him slap ur right face as well."         

无限的意义

在失去你后我独徘徊   生命的意义是否存在

麻痹了不想假设未来   逝去的所有无法重来

渺茫的心沉没在人海   厌倦填补生命的空白

要以什么来换取真爱   一切被无情现实掩盖

现实的局限  自然的局限  全在自己意念的无限

Chorus:

有限的自己 带出无限的意义      

无限的意义  终归有限的个体

还有我有你  带出和谐的意义 

和谐的意义  回归和谐的大地

到底要为谁全心全意   自己和所爱不能舍弃

爱为的是你还是自己   还是为着伟大去追寻

天空太阔我不能自己   总有一些爱的牺牲品

失去得到都值得珍惜   一生寻找永恒的真理

Bridge:

灵魂可游入哪个尽头的界线   有限或无限

随自我的决定去转变

肤浅日记本

唱首肤浅的歌    看部肤浅的戏

走在肤浅的街道  有人喊着肤浅的口号

人人都说好好好  我在怀疑他是否有脑

谈个肤浅的爱    说些肤浅的话

搞间肤浅的工厂  排出所有肤浅的欲望

在角落东张西望  看看那片色情的海洋

逼不得已  身不由己

天天写着日记   如念着咒语

我吃掉我自己

Chorus:

行尸走肉的游戏  流于表面的戏    真离奇

这是极端后现代主义  这班禽兽真美丽  我要名利与肉欲

执著肤浅的意义  是欢笑是哭泣    没意义

我祝你不需伤天害理  不必天天戴面具  摆脱肤浅的空虚

照照复杂的镜    看肤浅的自己

都没什么了不起  为自己拼命寻找意义

宇宙好像有自己  自己找不到宇宙的心

社会没有真理    是不是太卑鄙

大家超级比一比  所有东西不要比人低

没有上帝没自己  一切隐藏肤浅的常理

Bridge:

啦……啦……

你的波波真美丽   

你的前途在哪里

梦中的你是不是自己

This kind of weather …below 5 degree celsius, hoo hoo.. I lazy to go outside oso. Stay at home, wear 3-4 layers of clothing. Everyday  talk v some "white smoke" come out from my mouth. The feeling is not as nice as Malaysian imagine coz the weather like the fear factor reality show, keep on giving u challenging task, but luckily i oredi prepare everthing for the winter..So winter plz come, i wan ur romantic.

  My dad n mom come to visit me tomorrow, ooh then i can go to play n visit many places liao….cheers. This is a good excuse to ponteng. Muahaha..jalan jalan n makan makan….in this kind of cold weather.